Sorry I have not posted in a while. I have been busy working... although they do not have my computer yet to do engineering things... I cant just stand/sit around and do nothing.. I need to feel productive...
So what do I do as productive? My happy little ass is out in the metalworking shop... doing welding, spring compression, testing materials, driving forklifts, smelting metal, forging steel, playing with 20 ton cranes..... hell.....
Yeah
That's right
A woman
you got a problem with that?
Now if only I could get rid of the cat calls and whistles LOL
Yeah I'm not afraid to do work.. infact I love it.. Hell I fix my own vehicles.. But anywho just figured I'd let you all know I'm still alive...
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Wednesday, January 23, 2008
Visiting old friends and phone calls
Well I went out to visit an old friend of mine at his shop. I got there and we started talking and he had a laptop that someone had brought in and he asked me to take a look at it. So I fired it up and the screen was nearly blacked out. Ended up fixing that and next thing I know my mother calls me and tells me I need to come home right away and call the place I went to an interview yesterday.
As I arrive home and walk in the door I picked up the phone and called them. Turns out they want me in for a second interview on friday! w00t! So I'm going in on friday to meet with the project engineers to hopefully sell my skills to them and start working again! I'm so excited right now I can barely contain myself. Full benefits, Aflack, Life, Health, Dental, 401K (which I'm probably gonna have to roll over since it isn't with Merril Lynch).
I don't know which way to turn now lol.
In other news............
I was talking to my mom the other day about my friend Nicole, and the topic was depression. I have this twitch problem, and Nicole twitched while in her therapy lesson, well the psychologist thought that a bit weird. She thought it was a sign of depression. I told my mom this in a totally joking way, saying "maybe i have depression!" Mom said that I had most of the symptoms of depression. But that's just shit, i mean i'm crazy all the time! I'm always goofing off and having a good time with my friends. Yeah, i seem sad and stuff sometimes but, doesn't everyone? I mean i'm just an adult for goodness sake. After all this had been happening she dropped the bomb. I was going back to therapy. For those of you who haven't been to therapy let me tell you, it sucks. You have a total stranger thinking that they relate to you oh so much. And they just don't. They think they can solve all your problems by saying "and how does that make you feel?" Gets pretty fucking annoying after awhile. And they make you do all these retarded excercises like drawing your family tree. That was the most retarded one i have ever had to do. Or another making you think of what flower you most seem like. Anger management is another good one, i've been there a couple times. That was fun. Not. Just made me angrier if you ask me. Ah. On top of my usual drama and crap, my dad is becoming someone i completely hate. He's a fucking moron. And he tries to act nice to me and i can't stand him. I usually wish he would just leave me alone but, noooo he has to talk to me making me get annoyed and being rude. Which in turn makes my mom yell at me. I think me and my mom have gotten in so many different fights its crazy. Close to fist fights a few of them. Not very pretty. We used to be really close and we did things together all the time but not anymore. We hardly ever do anything because we're arguing. And the thing is they all blame all of this on me! Which is totally not cool. My family blames everything on me. Quite annoying really. I mean bad for your mental health right? Totally.
As I arrive home and walk in the door I picked up the phone and called them. Turns out they want me in for a second interview on friday! w00t! So I'm going in on friday to meet with the project engineers to hopefully sell my skills to them and start working again! I'm so excited right now I can barely contain myself. Full benefits, Aflack, Life, Health, Dental, 401K (which I'm probably gonna have to roll over since it isn't with Merril Lynch).
I don't know which way to turn now lol.
In other news............
I was talking to my mom the other day about my friend Nicole, and the topic was depression. I have this twitch problem, and Nicole twitched while in her therapy lesson, well the psychologist thought that a bit weird. She thought it was a sign of depression. I told my mom this in a totally joking way, saying "maybe i have depression!" Mom said that I had most of the symptoms of depression. But that's just shit, i mean i'm crazy all the time! I'm always goofing off and having a good time with my friends. Yeah, i seem sad and stuff sometimes but, doesn't everyone? I mean i'm just an adult for goodness sake. After all this had been happening she dropped the bomb. I was going back to therapy. For those of you who haven't been to therapy let me tell you, it sucks. You have a total stranger thinking that they relate to you oh so much. And they just don't. They think they can solve all your problems by saying "and how does that make you feel?" Gets pretty fucking annoying after awhile. And they make you do all these retarded excercises like drawing your family tree. That was the most retarded one i have ever had to do. Or another making you think of what flower you most seem like. Anger management is another good one, i've been there a couple times. That was fun. Not. Just made me angrier if you ask me. Ah. On top of my usual drama and crap, my dad is becoming someone i completely hate. He's a fucking moron. And he tries to act nice to me and i can't stand him. I usually wish he would just leave me alone but, noooo he has to talk to me making me get annoyed and being rude. Which in turn makes my mom yell at me. I think me and my mom have gotten in so many different fights its crazy. Close to fist fights a few of them. Not very pretty. We used to be really close and we did things together all the time but not anymore. We hardly ever do anything because we're arguing. And the thing is they all blame all of this on me! Which is totally not cool. My family blames everything on me. Quite annoying really. I mean bad for your mental health right? Totally.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
interviews interviews
Well well well, today was a decent day for me.. I woke up and looked out the window at the snowstorm and thought to myself.. "This drive today is going to suck". Lots of snow everywhere and I had to go east from home about 40 miles to an interview.
So I hopped into my lil sportage, Tossed it in gear and did a 180 to head down the road, Well unfortunately the 180 became a 360! I looked down and popped it in 4H and locked the hubs and took off down the road. As I got to the interstate I flipped 2 switches and turned on my fuzz buster and CB radio. Got to my interview and had a good conversation. The lady interviewing me told me that out of the 15 people she had interviewed so far, I was the only one she is going to recommend for a second interview. :D That made me happy!
So now it's a waiting game. They are gonna call me back sometime this week and I'll go back and hopefully get the job and make a decent living for once. The company has been in business since the 1950's and they have a good repuation. **coughs** I'll be supporting the nuclear industry, designing all kinds of fun technical stuff.
Well that's it for now. I think I'm gonna go play some games and zone out for a while.. I've had to much of people for the day.
Love you all!
So I hopped into my lil sportage, Tossed it in gear and did a 180 to head down the road, Well unfortunately the 180 became a 360! I looked down and popped it in 4H and locked the hubs and took off down the road. As I got to the interstate I flipped 2 switches and turned on my fuzz buster and CB radio. Got to my interview and had a good conversation. The lady interviewing me told me that out of the 15 people she had interviewed so far, I was the only one she is going to recommend for a second interview. :D That made me happy!
So now it's a waiting game. They are gonna call me back sometime this week and I'll go back and hopefully get the job and make a decent living for once. The company has been in business since the 1950's and they have a good repuation. **coughs** I'll be supporting the nuclear industry, designing all kinds of fun technical stuff.
Well that's it for now. I think I'm gonna go play some games and zone out for a while.. I've had to much of people for the day.
Love you all!
Sunday, January 20, 2008
Another sunday
Well here is another sunday in my life.
Today I was dragged to church. /joygasm
Came home and went up to my room and logged into WoW. Tried to say hello to people and see how they were all doing.. but as usual a certain few chose to say nothing. So I played my rogue for a bit.. got her to 42 :D Then I logged onto my mage and helped someone to get some holy waters. Then I logged out and ate dinner.. After dinner I was feeling a bit paniced and decided to go out and visit my little brother at work. :) So when I got there there was a strange dude there who was preaching at everyone who came in the door. The guy was there for an hour and a half then finally walked out to his truck to put the gas in that he prepayed for so long ago. Well after he filled up his truck I looked at my little brother and said.. "Hes gonna come back in, and complain about the gas."
Sure enough the guy comes in and says Hey I paid you 7.07 for gas.. and the pump says 2.13. Meanwhile with my math background I'm sitting there trying not to laugh my ass off. So they argued for a while and he finally walked out the door again. 2 minutes later the guy walked back in again! He then asked for a gallon of water. And proceeded back out to his truck. 15 minutes after he went back to his truck.. he finally left.
So I stayed with my little brother for another half hour after that just to make sure. (He cant fight, never could defend himself lol) So I was there to protect him. **giggles**
Now I'm sitting here.. reinstalling Halflife 2 because I have not played it in many years. Maybe I should reinstall the originals too. That would be so much fun... Maybe those of you who do play HL2 might see me online and get sniped mwah hahahahaha. I used to be so evil at that game.
It might take my mind off of feeling alienated from friends. I just want to apologise to all of my guild if I have done anything to cause problems with you all. I love all of you. You are my family. I wish I could take back some of the things I have done or haven't done.. I don't know anymore. but i just want everything to be the way it once was when Prophecy was young. I Miss that so much. Anywho enough of my mindless ramble.. I've got a half life to kill again!
Today I was dragged to church. /joygasm
Came home and went up to my room and logged into WoW. Tried to say hello to people and see how they were all doing.. but as usual a certain few chose to say nothing. So I played my rogue for a bit.. got her to 42 :D Then I logged onto my mage and helped someone to get some holy waters. Then I logged out and ate dinner.. After dinner I was feeling a bit paniced and decided to go out and visit my little brother at work. :) So when I got there there was a strange dude there who was preaching at everyone who came in the door. The guy was there for an hour and a half then finally walked out to his truck to put the gas in that he prepayed for so long ago. Well after he filled up his truck I looked at my little brother and said.. "Hes gonna come back in, and complain about the gas."
Sure enough the guy comes in and says Hey I paid you 7.07 for gas.. and the pump says 2.13. Meanwhile with my math background I'm sitting there trying not to laugh my ass off. So they argued for a while and he finally walked out the door again. 2 minutes later the guy walked back in again! He then asked for a gallon of water. And proceeded back out to his truck. 15 minutes after he went back to his truck.. he finally left.
So I stayed with my little brother for another half hour after that just to make sure. (He cant fight, never could defend himself lol) So I was there to protect him. **giggles**
Now I'm sitting here.. reinstalling Halflife 2 because I have not played it in many years. Maybe I should reinstall the originals too. That would be so much fun... Maybe those of you who do play HL2 might see me online and get sniped mwah hahahahaha. I used to be so evil at that game.
It might take my mind off of feeling alienated from friends. I just want to apologise to all of my guild if I have done anything to cause problems with you all. I love all of you. You are my family. I wish I could take back some of the things I have done or haven't done.. I don't know anymore. but i just want everything to be the way it once was when Prophecy was young. I Miss that so much. Anywho enough of my mindless ramble.. I've got a half life to kill again!
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Hello!
Hello everyone.
I am a crazy person who loves to play world of warcraft.
I love my guildies in prophecy, although I have not been quite myself lately.
For those of you who want to know why I have not been myself lately, I give you this link.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schizoaffective_disorder Welcome to my world. I have been dealing with alot of things lately, and I am trying to straighten myself out.
This is my first attempt at a blog. I am quite shy and don't do much. Except for my music and poetry.
I myself do not like conflict and lately I have been running from it. Personally I think it's about time that I start speaking my mind more. Yes I know it may hurt some people, but pent up feelings have been slowly tearing me down and destroying me.
I know this was a short post.. but I'm trying.
Love you all.
I am a crazy person who loves to play world of warcraft.
I love my guildies in prophecy, although I have not been quite myself lately.
For those of you who want to know why I have not been myself lately, I give you this link.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schizoaffective_disorder Welcome to my world. I have been dealing with alot of things lately, and I am trying to straighten myself out.
This is my first attempt at a blog. I am quite shy and don't do much. Except for my music and poetry.
I myself do not like conflict and lately I have been running from it. Personally I think it's about time that I start speaking my mind more. Yes I know it may hurt some people, but pent up feelings have been slowly tearing me down and destroying me.
I know this was a short post.. but I'm trying.
Love you all.
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